The Logic Behind Love

I stared out the window, watching the leaves try to remain in tact with the branches that gave them life, thinking about you, as I tend to do periodically throughout the day. My mind was racing with the all things you'd ever said to me, frantically trying to analyze every word, every sentence, every action. The sun beat through the window and I could feel its warmth wrap around me like a hug from behind. 

I mean, I could probably go on and on forever about every little thing about you. I love everything you are and everything you're not. I love how you drive me up the wall some days, and some days, I feel like I'm floating on air. I love that simultaneously, I'm so incredibly comfortable around you and so incredibly insecure. Just the mere thought of you gives me butterflies. 

Then a thought shouted out to me: What do you have that any other guy I know doesn't have? 

I mean, really. Let's think about this logically: what is it that sets you apart from the crowd? You have eyes, ears, a nose, a heart, lungs, etc. You feel the same things any other male human would feel and you act pretty much the same as any other male human would in your situation. But what is that you have that makes me so drawn to you?

I could probably, again, go on and on forever to answer this question, but I am going to answer it with one simple word: Chemistry.


Yes, cliche and over-used, I know. But there's no other way to describe it. There's some kind of reaction when we're together, regardless of whatever setting we're in. And it's so intriguing to watch and wait to see what happens, and at the same time, it's so nerve racking. I love that almost every aspect of our relationship is like a roller coaster rush: excitement and fear, all mixed into one intoxicating emotion. 


The point I'm trying to make is that there's no one reason as to why I have feelings for you, or for any other male, for that matter. You can't help where your heart leads you. And you sure as heck can't predict where, either.


All I know is that I love you. I may not be IN love with you (though the possibility is there), but I do love you.




Sometimes there's not a logical reason as to why you love someone; sometimes "because I just do" is logic enough. 
And logic itself is completely overrated anyway, right? Sometimes you just know in your heart when something's right, even if your head is telling you it's wrong.




I'm not sure if this makes ANY sense, but I thought it did.
Food for thought, I suppose, if nothing else.


In His name,
xoxo
<3
Linds